Light at the end of the tunnel
I'm currently in my third month, creating this blog, and finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have been able to settle into a somewhat predictable routine. I'm going multiple days without headaches. I'm ramping up on computer time (3-4 hrs/day) and preparing myself for returning to work. I created this blog, which is a sign in and of itself that I'm able to do more, actually produce something, and have a sense of accomplishment. Something I have missed terribly over the last couple of months. I still have days, or parts of days, where a tough headache settles in. But, they don't last as long, and I can typically look forward to having a better day the next day.
Experiencing 'normalcy', one sign at a time
Sometimes it's the little things that give me reminders of what 'normal' feels like. Such as, the first time during my recovery that I was able to enjoy listening to music while I was out for a walk. I can not describe the pure joy I had. It brought tears to my eyes. I didn't realize how much I had missed listening to music. For the past few months, I sometimes tolerated it for sake of kids/family having some background tunes to listen to. But it always caused my head to squeeze and ache to some degree. I still can't say I can enjoy it everyday or in all settings. But, the fact that I enjoyed it one day tells me there is hope. Little by little, inch by inch I will have a full recovery. I will return to what I used to know as normal. It might be unpredictable. It might be inconsistent. But, I have faith I will get there. I am getting there. I prepare myself there could be other setbacks, but I will get through them, and I will continue to look forward.
Here's to forward progress!!!
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